The end or the beginning?….

Imi doresc sa fiu iar mica. Sa fiu acasa la ai mei, cu ai mei. Sa ma aduca tata in carca de la bunica, dormind pe umerii lui.

Sa ma mangaie mama in par si sa imi citeasca povesti.

Sa fac traznai pentru care tata ma acoperea.

Sa imi cumpere tata guma turbo si mama sa imi faca ciocolata de casa.

Sa o rog pe Elena sa se joace cu mine.

Sa fiu la bunica-mea in curtea aia imensa, sub vie, citind povesti.

Sa privesc lumea din nucul ala batran si sa nu simt nimic care sa imi zabreleasca sufletul.

Sa fiu mica si nebuna si atat de libera, atat de necomplicata, atat de nepasatoare, atat de dornica sa nu ma fac mare, atat de naiva, atat de inocenta, atat de increzatoare, atat de….

Mi-e atat de dor de ai mei incat la ora 5 dimineata, acum, imi vine sa ma urc intr-o masina si sa ma duc acasa si sa ma bag in pat langa mama.

Le vreau pe toate inapoi, copilaria aia atat de fericita, fara ingradiri, fara constientizare, fara durere, fara implicatii, fara responsabilitati, fara jocuri si complicatii absurde.

Pentru ca urasc jocurile si mizeriile si meschinariile si tin prea  mult la sufletul meu (inca) nepervertit. Pentru ca i have to stay true to myself or nobody else will.

No more hiding. No more games. No more lies. Mastile cad. Sa mai fie povara si pe alti umeri….

Mattafix – To & fro

“Now I see it all,
right before me,
your little story.
My role was on the page,
I refused to play in your
tragedy.
I feel no remorse while
you deal with yours.
How you feeling lately?
Well no one more got
close to me before.
Lady you betrayed me.

To & fro,
is how my thoughts
would go,
while I was looking for,
my release.
You should know,
I had to let you go,
now and forever more,
I’m out of reach.”

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4 Responses so far »

  1. 1

    Somebody said,

    All you can really do is to keep your child soul and live your life with it. Asuma-ti responsabilitati doar atunci cand trebuie, live every day like it’s the last day of your life, bucura-te de orice lucru, cat de mic si banal ar parea.

    This makes life easier, I used to do things that way & it worked, marveleous…

  2. 2

    Ioana Hurjui said,

    i’m too old for this crap :))

  3. 3

    Gramps said,

    Damn kids, get off my lawn!

  4. 4

    Raluca Goia said,

    ma, eu as ramene vesnic la 25 sau 30 de ani…inca nu m-am hotarat 🙂


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